Here me out right, why do we (or I feel like I definitely do) feel the need to hide our illnesses? I mean please tell me if it is just me, I want to overcome this. I want it to be normalised. It doesn’t make me less of a person that I have Multiple Sclerosis, multiple lesions in my brain and difficulty walking continuously. It doesn’t make me any less of a person. I know this, I sometimes don’t tell myself this but I DO know this.
I’ve only told a handful of people about my condition and I’m not saying I should be stopping every Tom, Dick and Harry walking down the street but why do I hide it? I’m an advocate that it doesn’t make me who I am but it is a part of me and it does mould a lot about me. In my new job I know all sorts about people’s back ache and hip aches and when someone has a cold or feels sick but yet the only person that knows I have MS is my manager. I make an effort to walk without a limp when people are around and I never complain about not being able to feel my left leg, to a point that no one knows there is anything wrong.
I don’t want sympathy of anyone or to be continuously checked up on, but I do want it to be normal to discuss. Yet here I am, discussing it with barely anyone.
Is there advise to this? Does anyone have any tit bits to share with me?
I do hope that one day it will feel normal for me to discuss having ms, feel normal to go out using my walking stick without feeling like people are looking at me like I have 5 heads – what makes it worse is that I do know other people really don’t actually care but it is sooo easy to feel paranoid isn’t it?
- Sharing is caring and all that
- Invisible illnesses should be normal
- I should not feel like I need to hide
Apologies for my very short posts at present, haven’t been feeling 100% but promise to try get back at it properly ASAP!