Collating my thoughts.

Hola to all of those that continuously keep thinking I have dropped off the face of the earth.

I am seriously struggling at the moment, I think a mixture of being dismissed and general fatigue is all getting a bit much. It has seriously knocked it out of me, everything that happened at my old work place, I did however, have an interview yesterday do let’s see what comes of that. Ideally I want something part time but it’s only up the road so travelling would only be 10minutes, if I didn’t get stuck in traffic which makes full time seem slightly more appealing really!

Recovery from Lemtrada has gone absolutely smashing I think, woke up one night with a horrendous stomach ache, threw up everywhere (sorry for all the details) and went back to sleep, woke up mostly ok and just keep getting the odd funny belly, but compared to how I thought I would feel I’d say that’s pretty damn good.

I’m going to say something though and I wondered how many other MS-ers feel the same, or if it is just me in my wee head at the moment. MS is such a lonely illness. There. Said it! No taking it back. Am I the only one that feels this way? Going to be really awkward if I am!

Well, anyway! I’ve been insanely busy helping wor Lad at the new house. When I say help, I mean giving moral support and standing about making sure he doesn’t accidently knock himself out with a hammer or anything, we did however do the wiring and we now have all upstairs lights. Still no sockets but hey, baby steps right.

I can only apologise for how everywhere this post is today but I would say it’s a pretty perfect representative of how my brain currently feels. Just a bit everywhere. Trying to distract myself from pains in my legs, pins and needles in my feet. My wee brain just darts off in a thousand different tangents.

Maybe this is a good way though to collate those thoughts, a good way for me to see exactly what is going on up there. Well, we will see!

It’s Friday though, I hope you all have big plans this weekend and I can’t wait to hear all about them!

Also, I’ve been nominated for a few awards recently by some very kind people. Once I get back on my laptop I will get those posts written up!

  1. It’s ok that your brain is everywhere, run with it.
  2. Falling behind on things is absolutely fine, don’t be so hard on yourself.
  3. Deep breaths. It’s going to be ok.

H x

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15 Comments

  1. Good to see you back to blogging, looking all radiant! Good luck on your new job hunt. I know being diagnosed with an illness like MS can feel lonely at most times, but well do know that things will surely look up from tomorrow!! Chin up Hannah, you are too pretty to be lonely ๐Ÿ˜Ž

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    1. Thank you! Hopefully something comes out of the woodwork soon, got a kitchen to save for! Haha.
      You are far too kind, hopefully will get back into the blogging game, I keep saying it and not achieving anything but hopefully it will be different this time! Xx

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  2. Oh Hannah, I am sorry you are having such a rough time of it recently! I wish you no more mid-night – floor burps (that’s what my baby brother used to call them when he would “miss the toilet”) and restful restorative sleep tonight!

    And let me just say, you are NOT wrong in saying MS is a lonely disease. I have an amazing husband who tries his very hardest to understand and empathize with what I am going through. But sometimes I know he still doesn’t truly understand. The things we feel are so unique that it’s easy to feel alone. But girl, I got you! All of us MS Warriors have got your back. We may be far apart on this planet but we are close at heart.

    I am newly diagnosed so I’m not sure if I am even qualified to saying all that, as I am constantly feeling the loneliness myself. But I do truly believe it. I think being able to talk to each other like this helps a lot too.

    I hope you get some much needed rest and relaxation and don’t put too much pressure on yourself regarding the job! Take your time and what is meant to be will be โค

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    1. Aaah you are far too kind! Thank you!
      I’m the same in the sense have only been diagnosed what? Think I’m into month 8, I mean I’m not really sure at what point I stop saying I’m newly diagnosed, but surely within a year, yeah? Haha but my boyfriend tries so hard to be supportive and understanding but yeah he obviously doesn’t fully understand what’s occuring or why I fall off every pavement or forget where I’ve put the car keys and find them in the fridge ๐Ÿ˜‚

      It helps so much knowing that there is so many people who are going through the same or similar so thank you! Just feeling a wee bit melodramatic today I think ๐Ÿคฆ๐Ÿผโ€โ™€๏ธ

      Also LOVE the term floor burps, I definitely might borrow that one on occasion hahaha

      Thank you again, I love meeting such kind hearted souls through wordpress/Twitter whatever else. Gives you faith back in humanity! ๐Ÿงก

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  3. Iโ€™m glad at least the Lemtrada recovery is better than anticipated, but Iโ€™m so sorry about how much youโ€™re struggling right now. Donโ€™t apologise for being honest in how you write your posts, itโ€™s reassuring to know youโ€™re human and that you find things difficult too (as much as I wish you werenโ€™t). Donโ€™t feel bad about feeling bad, Hannah. Youโ€™ve got this. I really do hope the days get brighter for you soon. โ€œJust keep swimmingโ€ as Dory from Finding Nemo would say.ย โ™ฅ
    Caz xx

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    1. Ah Caz I can always count on you to write lovely lovely comments! You are seriously such an angel and I couldn’t be more greatful for it!
      Well… Looking at a silver lining, this afternoon I got a phone call to say the interview I had yesterday, I got the job! Feels so good to have some positive news. I haven’t been at a workplace near on two months so I think I was just going a bit cabin fever-ish so hopefully that will help ๐Ÿคž
      Hahaha Dory is definitely my spirit animal ๐Ÿ˜‰ I hope you’re doing well and thank you again!! Xxx

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    1. So very true! I think because I have neglected wordpress a bit as I felt everything I had to write wasn’t very interesting but, I’m going to quit with that thought and just wrote what I’m thinking ๐Ÿ˜‚

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  4. MS is such a lonely illness ๐Ÿ˜ฆ but at least we all have each other on here. ๐Ÿ™‚ I do find it helps so much. xx
    Good luck for the job interview! What is the job? And I’m so glad your doing well after the Lamtrada treatment. ๐Ÿ™‚
    It’s really sad, but I’m so excited that its Eurovision weekend. I use to hate it but I sat and watched it last year for the first time and loved it! ๐Ÿ™‚ So that’s my weekend. Hope you have a lovely weekend. ๐Ÿ™‚ xxx

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    1. Yes I couldn’t agree more! It does help when I see someone with similar issues (as awful as that sounds) makes me feel like it isn’t all in my head!
      I got the job! It’s supporting people that are doing online learning courses, making sure they’re completing their work on time and aware of hand in dates. Something I have never done before but always good to mix things up again I suppose!
      That sounds like a fabulous weekend if I’m honest. Eurovision is always a right laugh if nothing else ๐Ÿ˜Š i always think the commentating is what makes it, Graham Norton is just so funny and with Mel Giedroyc doing it with him the other year was hilarious
      My boyfriend’s dad and step mum are up for the weekend to give us a hand with the house so that should be entertaining xxx

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      1. Lol I know exactly what you mean! But otherwise you just don’t know anyone that has similar issues and that’s always abit worrying. I feel almost normal when I realise so many other people have them too. ๐Ÿ™‚
        Congratulations on getting the job! That sounds quite interesting. ๐Ÿ™‚ And it’s great that it’s so near.
        Lol, its true, and we’re even going to treat ourselves to a pizza and unhealthy puddings (I never allow myself to do it usually). I hope it all goes well with them staying and that you all have a great weekend. ๐Ÿ™‚ xxx

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  5. I am so glad to hear from you, but I am so sorry you are having a difficult time. It seems like MS issues comes in waves and some of those waves are a lot more intense! I know how lonely it can feel at times, but at least we have each other! There are so many amazing people we meet through blogging that really understand and give great advice and great vibes.
    Congratulations on your new job, it sounds great!!!
    I hope you have a great and relaxing weekend. Always remember to try to not push yourself too far! We all have to put our health above everything else, which also includes work! I am sending you lots of love and comfort sweetie!!

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    1. Thank you Alyssa! You are so right and health really does need to come first, I do quite often forget about this even though I tell people it all the time never seem to take my own advise it would seem ๐Ÿ˜‚
      I’m hoping coming back into the blogging world will help me feel a bit less lonely as it is always do refreshing when the comments come in reminding me that there is a huge number of people out there going through the same stuff, which is easy to forget in your own little world isn’t it!
      You’re always so encouraging and I absolutely love it! Thank you again ๐Ÿ˜˜๐Ÿ˜˜ xx

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      1. We are so much a like Hannah! I give the advice that our health is the most important thing and work is less important. I honestly do the exact opposite of my own advice 99.9% of the time! I guess I have a lot to learn!
        I am glad you are back. It is helpful chatting with others that understand. It makes us feel far less lonely. Please know I am here for you!!!!

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